BUSY FUCKTARD

BE THR ALWAYS, DEARIE. ♥

NO TIME TO BLOG.

MY BABALOVE!

YVETTE AND MORE YVETTE ♥

This are random photos, old + new ones.
Busy preparing yve's 2nd birthday, so sorry to all my lovey that i have no time for y'll. Shall see y'll soon on th 9th! <3

H.E.A.R.T.S

想起过去模糊你的好.

你的笑,你的好,脑海里一直在绕.
我的手,忘不掉,你的手的温度. ♥

HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?

I FEEL SO SO BAD, YET I CAN TELL NO ONE.♥

When i felt so not right, actually i dont wish anyone to ask when i dont wish t mention. But on th other hand, i want people to comfort me. I know its too much that i am asking for, i took everyone for granted last time. I just fucking dont get what i deserve anymore, i deserve nothing more than "how are you?"

I dont wanna live my life like some desperate, wanting attention anymore. I really dont wanna be mocked at anymore, i can stay alive for myself and not depending other people's care/concern. Cause i start to pity myself so very much, i am like such a begger. Begging for you to care, to ask, to think about my feelings.

I hate to be like this, yes i envy others. Having all your attention and care, i think its so very late t be regretting what i did.

Major heartbreak, i feel sore.

AnyOhow, one thing i am happy with in life is that i have yvette and lovers around me. So very many of them, and all they did for me. I CAN NEVER REPAY! I hope that everyone could let me be so that i dont feel so pressurized cause i dont wanna let anyone down when i am not up t your expectation. I kinda sucks in everything, i tried once and i wanna give up already. Cause its so upsetting and i dont wanna continue this FU life.

I just wanna tell everyone that i love you all so very much, but when i dont meet you does not mean you are forgotten/left out/abandoned. Its just that certain things, i just wanna keep it t myself and i dont wanna hear any opinions when i am not in a clear state of mind. No Offence.

My life is in like 3pieces, First - Childhood till Pri6, Second - Mostloved(Sec Sch) & Third - Yvette (Motherhood).

Childhood Sucks with a daddy and therefore i have to keep everything t myself as my mom is uber strict and not very communicate-able.

Mostloved - Kinda complicated and i am such a bastard back then, i am just a fugly slut that make all th best person on earth suffer because of me.

Motherhood - Its so hard but sweet, tho i cant pursue what i wanted/who i wanted to be with because i have yvette. But this is my choice and i have t accept all kinds of reasons.


Anyhow,
this post is way too long and i am tired to continue as yvette is coughing. So i am gonna stop typing and go t sleep.

OVERLOVED - YVEWAYNE

MAXIMIZED ♥

Quality time with yvette is awesome in a way tho she is such a nuisance. I dont need t rant t anyone about my sorrows cause i think its stupid/redundant/waste of others time and effort.

Being alone does not means lonely, its kinda mean peace t me at times. Cause i think my life is so very hectic all th time, even at home i need t report every single thing t everyone. Maybe i am used t it or people are, i just feel so cooped up. I know i am weird, i know people care yet i refused t be cared.

Anyhow, i love my family and friends and some other people who meant hell lot t me. People i miss so so much and yet i can only tell myself that its not gonna workout at all. All i can do is t move on and let it be cause the past aint gonna replay.

Being love is being burdened, Loving is being a burden.

I DID IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN, REGRETTING

I MISS YOU BABY STRAIGHT HAIR ): ♥

I know i shouldnt have perm/cut my hair. It would be fucking long by now. from 8sept2008 - today, i cut my hair like 9times/straighten it once/curl it once.

NOW IT FUCKING SUCK MAX, ITS MAX DISGUSTING PLEASE. I WANNA BALD MYSELF INSTEAD.

LITTLE ANDERS!

WELCOME LITTLE ANDERS. ♥

Little Anders is born on 10august 2010!
CONGRATS TO ASHLEE BARNEY <3

SATURDAY/SUNDAY/MONDAY

Saturday, its like going to gram's place after going causeway with yve/mum/gram. We walked around and bought tshirt cos gram's sourcing for my cousin and uncle. Went to JohnLil and then off to foodcourt for lunch. After all that, went t gram's and stone and everyone is sleeping like a log. But when yve and mom and gram wokeup, i am still dying for more rest. I INSIST ON NOT WAKING UP TILL 7PM ): Had dinner and watch my show and all then sleep again, i think my gastric is making me fuck tired :X

Sunday, as usual. gram's out early in th morning with momma, was grampy's death anniversary so mom and grammy cooked hell loads of nice foodie and yvette is thrown in th room with her sleepy momma = me. -.- I F tired la, GG! And after breakfast, went Tamp1 with momma and yvette t meet cousin mic and niece ella + el's daddy! HAHAHA :D She is awesome chubby la, 7weeks old and she is alr 5kg. OMG, half of yvette man. Was like awesome fun you know, had kim gary and then off we go shopping again. and all were yvette's things la. hello kitty chop and toys...
Back t gram's for dinner and bef that mom went t buy thing at vista point. Brought alot of things back again, barney bolster/jerry's bag for yvette....
After dinner, went home and rest till monday morning.

Monday, ate breakfast at home. Mom wanted to do housework, so me and sissy brought yvette t waterfront with her bi-qi-ker. pushed her like 0.5hours before reaching and we are like drench with sweat. EMO HOT! Then sat along th bridge with yvette, looking at th fishes and butterflies is like awesomw fun for yvette la. EVERYTIME WANT!
She cleverly roll th new water bottle i bought down th lake-.- MY MONEY FLY AGAIN! Then due t shortage of water, we went back early. Pushing her back home took us 20minutes taking another route.
Then bathe and all, went yishun northpoint for a walk and lunch at foodcourt. AWESOME YTF there still as YUMMEH :D Then went Pohkim's sales, alot of DVDS for sale and at any amount under $80, you get all th DVD you want at $45. Awesome deal, so i got Hi! My Sweetheart DVD, DORAEMON that yvette wanted and 3more sets of disc man :D FOR $45 not $80+. Went THAI EXPRESS, had light salad and all then kiddy palace for yvette's birthday clothings and shoes and others clothings. She cried for kitty toys again-.-

YOU KNOW WHAT,YVETTE FREAKING MISS HER SWIMMING LESSONS AND SHE MUMM THE WHOLE DAY TO GO SWIMMING SIA. :( POOR LILLTE THINGY, THINK MAYBE SOON I GOTTA BRING HER FOR A SWIM WITH PROPER SWIMMING GEARS <3



PS: that's all, its a freaking long retard post i know. LOL

BE THR ALWAYS, DEARIE. ♥

QUOTED FROM ♥MBER COCO HUIQIN

Awesome Line ♥

You said it hurts to see me tear.
I say It'll kill me to see you leave.
And you rather leave me dead.

RANDOMS E&Y

Its not me being photo craze, its yvette who say: "Mummy, take photo." and she turn my phone around ready for photo-taking. She is damn cute to max, LOL!


& she is my first love, ever.

Hey Femme, You Are The One.

Right Beside Me, Is Whr You Belong. ♥

Anyw, whatever it is. What you are now, is enough for me to stay happy for a long time.

Friends Only: You are the answer to my prayer from up above.

DEATHLY HALLOWS IN 2 PARTS

HARRY POTTER FINALE NOV2010&JULY2011 ♥

God Damn Emo, two parts and its like half year apart ):
& no one is gonna watch this with me anymore, guniang.

leaving the love 546days or forever.

First August, - 365days. ♥

I dont wanna give up, I dont wanna give in. Cause you're my everything ; One love.