Hanging On Is Not The Best I Can Do? ♥
Whatever it is, i am not feeling helpless or upset or whatsoever. Maybe i am just a little tired, and a little sick of all th things that is happening. I think i need a break, i need t be alone and think of what i should do and what i should be daydreaming about, forget it soon.
Yes, i thot that is the way to giveup and useless hope and wishes. So god damn tired to talk, shop, eat and being with alot of people. Friends and family, i hate t let them see how how bad in shape i am. How ugly how fat how retarded how restless i have become.
55kilograms is th worst thing tht ever happen t me, i realised i have been doing shit and not thinking clearly. What should i do now? Anyway, my thighs are really fuck up fatter then usual cos jeans are tight when it goes up. -.- CCB, me and my fuck mouth. I a hog,swine. whatever la.
Please you people, my dearest. Stop me from eating so much, i beg. And at this moment i feeel like i can fuckingly die here, i wanna cry so much. But i cant find a reason to start with, so yea no crying pls. Its tired and it causes swelling of eyes.
I SO WANNA GET NEW PENKNIFE, I REALLY DO. NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!?