BE THR ALWAYS, DEARIE. ♥
This is the 300Th day, almost 1/3 of 911days. Counting and Still ...
I just got to know, you don't bother to read my blog anymore. I know you don't even bother to care, cause it ain't your problem anymore just because i said you wasn't my friend anymore. What i have known is what i think the problem lies, in another words i seems to be too obsessive to you. Am i? I don't really know, what i can say is that i am like that since Day One. You choose to love instead of being loved, its totally true. Cause you do not wish to regret not loving her, cause you long for her love in return.
No idk, No 看先.
If its her you wanted, can you tell me why you came to me that time. Is it because you needed someone to talk to? You wanted someone to comfort your sorrows? You wanted someone to spite her just because you feel so not right when you see her with other guy? Or you just wanted to play for awhile, before you get her back? Tell me the reason behind, don't say that you are afraid to hurt me cause you already did. And fuck it, it hurts a whole lot! mind you.
I think all i am not over with might be just the reason why, what exactly did i do to you. That makes you wanna have a revenge on me, taking me as some crap you had before getting back with her. Why is it me? Its my fault to text you after so long, its my fault to be there for you at times when she is not around. Don't that sound like i am a substitute? Or am i not even fit to be her substitute? Please. I don't care how much is your love for her but i don't think you can just make use of my love for you just to get your loneliness filled up.
What is love all about to you? You: "stick together like this forever"? That's great, i can't do it and i am eliminated from your life. So your game isn't a fair one, the person who can be there for you 24/7 wins you back. Aw w, so what did you think of when you said "be with me"? Its merely saying with your mouth and being happy about it for that split moment.
What the hell, i swear i would never tell anyone my feelings. The more i say, the more fuckup i get, the more i think about. I think the more people get into this love matter i am meddling with myself, its stupid and i get everyone fuck up with th same motherfucking issue.
And please, its about me not forgetting you/ its about me thinking of you/ its about me not over you/ its about me going crazy over you. So what you wanna do/say/mock at? For being a super retard/major turnoff? Ohgod, what's up with you'll? I get fuckup with life and i don't think your concern makes any different cause i have already said:"I AIN'T HAPPY WITHOUT YOU." Can you fucking enter them into your mind and so does your girlf's. Get hold of your own life and jolly well get out totally if you wish that to be th outcome you wanted.
Yes, i said i wanted you badly/i miss you badly. So what?! i know it does not matter to you. But please don't let people tell me why you left and that i did not even know why is that so cause its hurting so god damn much. If all you wanna do is to hurt me with all your might, do it quick and do it now.
I JUST DONT REALLY CARE ANYMORE.
