As times goes by, things that i have done that hurt my family/friends/life. I know you people might say that it aint my fault at times, th truth is i did all those shit without considering th consuquences that im facing now.
Trying to hide from responsibilities at times, tried once and gave up on stuff that i said i really wanted to have/own/gain. Whatever this/that might be, im putting up a strong front and yes i dont want any one to pity me. Please dont even care that much cause i cannot take that kinda of glance from all of you. I can crap infront of you and when i go home i will ...
I am sick of you/her/him/she/them/it/they, i want a life with all my friends back. Jessica Cheong is th one i regretted not believing and that doubt cost me that greatest friend. She did stood by me back then and she care for me so veh much i can say out loud, i do miss you at times. I REGRET, REALLY.
Looking back at th things i have done, i was trying to be someone.
Yvette is now 18months, she know quite a handful of things. Superbly sensitive i can say, i was wondering. Will she ever ask me, "where is daddy?". This really sucks TTC, but i dont think i can do a thing about it. When i was first with yve's dad, the reason was just because he's actions is super similar to ... And that makes me feel better cause i long for you to be back to me.
I think i wanna be like joean's mommy, joean can live very well without a dad too. So Yvette should learn from joean and that will be th only chance. Cause not all daddy fits to be a daddy. Daddy who claims their sperms gives lives can FO and die, they dont worth th kids calling them D A D D Y :D
Okay, I am going out now.